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Thirty years…. thirty years since He was born, almost thirty years since he died. Same year but different, not quite, 2 years short. His father died in 94, he was born in 93. August to December 25….or December 25 to August. Doesn’t matter much now the long or short of it cause at the timeContinue reading “He turned 30!”

Anger….the emotion that we don’t want to talk about…especially when we are grieving. It is taboo, not acceptable so they say…so we fight it, we hide it, we try to snuff it out but it is an emotion that we have. Believe me snuffing does not work it comes out. It is an emotion thatContinue reading “Anger….the taboo”

Some days this journey is like climbing stairs… been moving forward, upward at a steady pace..moving ahead toward peace, joy…his joy and peace..even experiencing it in waves but today it is like I am out of breath. Like climbing one flight and now I am tired, worn, the memory, the pain is there, the factContinue reading “Climbing the stairs”

I find myself in an unusual state this year. I am between sadness and joy. I don’t recall being there in a very long time. I ask myself why? Why are these two seemingly co existing in this holiday? I find myself remembering and missing, while remembering and feeling the joy of the memories. MemoriesContinue reading “This Christmas…”

It has come again….today…Thanksgiving….the Holiday. Maybe it is your first, second… and you want to be. You want to be thankful, you want to feel the “Happy” in the Thanksgiving but you are not there. Don’t despair, keep moving as forward as you can, a day at a time, a step at at time andContinue reading “Today”

April 20, 2021 … 27 years this December. I pray that if this is your first day to these thoughts, that you will go back to the beginning, and that in doing that you will find comfort in the sharing that I have done up till now. I was prompted to reach out to oneContinue reading “Hope”

I have a cousin that was recently hospitalized with a severe infection…flesh eating bacteria. He was giving praise and thanks to the staff at the hospital and to Jesus for keeping him. In our conversation, he went on to tell me a story about his older sister in that when they were younger and heContinue reading “The “Cool” Towel”

A dear friend who is like a sister has had the unfortunate experience of the death of a child. My hope that in reading this you may find comfort. You asked a question last night that I do not have an answer to. When will the nightmare end? What I do know for me, IContinue reading “The nightmare”

The days when the grief is for like of a better word, seems to be drowning you. In the beginning it is so consuming. It affects body, mind, and spirit. How can I get through, do I even want to, Can I even try feeling…paralyzed in pain. It has taken over your thoughts, concentration, yourContinue reading ““It feels like I am drowning””