Climbing the stairs

Some days this journey is like climbing stairs… been moving forward, upward at a steady pace..moving ahead toward peace, joy…his joy and peace..even experiencing it in waves but today it is like I am out of breath. Like climbing one flight and now I am tired, worn, the memory, the pain is there, the fact that he/she/they are gone. So what do I do…rest, take a break, can’t move today upward toward the goal..the joy, the peace..so I just breathe, feel, lean into it for today. Just like with the stairs, I will get my breath back, my strength from him, Jesus! This day he is holding me carrying me, tomorrow I will step, move forward, upward, and I am not alone so…on those days, I fret not but rest, and breathe and gain strength, from Him to continue till I reach the place of joy. The joy that he gives not of myself!