New Year

It has been a while since I last wrote. I have had many thoughts about “New Year”. For many of mothers out there…there is no new. The pain of the time has not transitioned to “New”. The if only’s, this time last year, if I coulda wouldas.., anger, how could or would this happen…the bundle of hurt, confusion is ever present…but life somehow is going on. You may see it going around you, others may seem to not stop, not understand or even care. Some of you may be wives, some mothers of other children, working, stay at home, I could go on and on. What can I do or say to you…really nothing to make any or all of what you may be experiencing now go away. I can tell you it will but, that is not your reality now. I can assure that there is some one who will never leave you or forsake you..,even if the enemy of your mind is saying otherwise. He is our precious Savior, Jesus. So, lean into your pain, but as you do, if you can, fine strength to reach out to him with all of it. Imagine yourself placing it in His hands, and you in His arms! If you don’t already know Him, that is ok too, just ask him to come…He is so loving that He will. Continue to do the next thing you can, one inch, one step at at time. Feel what you feel and know as you move…..one, one year in the future and I do not put a time on it, I know Joy is there. Choose it even now when you can’t even conceive it as possible, and it is a fruit that He gives in your season!