Christmas…..

It has been a while since my last post. Christmas is three days away. I woke up after a morning of prayer with my sisters, I thought what is it for me to say, to share. I thought about the “Christmas Star” that has been focused on, and how in this time of darkness for some it has become a symbol of light. A reminder of that “Star” the star that led the Magi to the “Light of the world”, and for those moms who may be in a dark place this time of the year and not just during “Christmas”, He is still that same light. If I could reach back to that Christmas when it was dark and full of pain, I did not know about the joy that awaited on the other side. I remember thinking this time last year her was…..and the was was endless, and the pain was heavy but, I can say now was. So, you may not be at the was so what do I say? Getting to the was… the other side lies in taking the journey. Leaning into the hurt and pain while going toward the was. Kinda like lying on a wave in the ocean. You experience the turmoil of the waves, the calm when it comes but you do not drown! My support was in the knowledge that I could not do it (not only that, I did not want to), but I had holding me up a savior, a light of sort, that in the darkness and all of the gut wrenching pain, the mind ponder he would. It had to be, and I had to make it “intentional” because in my strength it would have been easier to let go… to let the grief drown me. For me Christmas not was and is my hope. I heard the other day that the reason for the season came with result. The result is that death is defeated, suffering is defeated because of Him! Eternity waits all of us. Even though I miss him still on this side, I know I will one day see him because “Christmas.” I want to encourage you today as you take your journey which will be unique to you just as mine was to me….Joy will come! “Unto us this day is born a savior which is Christ the Lord” Luke 2:11. Coming ” Keeping afloat when it seems like I am drowning.”